Living in a Cage

 Life during the Covid-19 pandemic is something that most of us might never think of. We simply have a life outside of our home on daily basis. People go to work and school, hang out during weekends, socialize with family and friends. Or probably, it's fair enough to say that, home is now 'hotel', where we just 'sleep and go'. 'Cause, we simply have a life outside of that radius of safe space.

However, when the pandemic hit us, things worked differently in many ways. As an introvert, the first few weeks of the pandemic were not that bad, to be honest. I mean, yeah. I felt stuck, thinking of the experiment I'd left at the lab. Less did I know, I wouldn't be back to the uni anymore. And I graduated in shock! But the pandemic as a whole renewed my perspectives in so many ways. As a Muslim, it strengthens my faith towards fate (Qada' and Qadar); if Allah wants it to be, it will be.

We never know that we would live this way. We never know, that stucked at home is sucks, even with your loved one. I love space. I need space. I'm used to having my own space. And I believed that there's nothing wrong with that. Up until I get to a point, I need even more. I need to go out, enjoying my time at another 'cage'. 'Cause, this cage does not give me comfort anymore.

I tried to shift my view. If I were an extrovert, how would I deal with this whole situation? Would I be happy to be clingy around my loved ones? Or would I get emotional 'cause I can't meet more people? I just can't imagine exactly how it feels. But I believed everyone is struggling in their own way.

We thought (well.. I thought), a few months of lockdowns were enough to combat the virus. Nah! They mutate. And here we are, two years later. Life goes on. Some lose their job, some lose their loved ones, some marriages are collapsed and one after another national and international issue arised. On the other hand, another bunch of people are in a better state of life and world is healing in some parts. MasyaAllah! TabarakAllah.

The good side of this global situation is that we viewed life from our own cage. Even if we might not opt for it, or we never being that critical, the pandemic pushed us to. 'Cause, we have no choice! We have to live with it, till at least it becomes normal flu. Yet still, Covid joins the club now. We've seen anti-vaccines who lived among us, true colors, shades, and hues coming out tadaaa. There's no way to hide anymore. We are all trapped!

And again. We have no choice. But live in that cage. And leave that cage, cautiously. When the outside world is no longer that safe, it's time to rebuild our inner world. To be happy, content, and fulfilled from within. It's not easy. But do we have a choice? Well... To voice things out, to find a solution, and to try would cause no harm insyaAllah. Indeed it's a noble job. But to decide the taqdir, Nah. We're not in that position, kan?

Whatever it is, I pray that everyone is happy. If you are not, I pray that you will. If you might lose hope, may you find the will to pray and to live. With Allah, all is khayr insyaAllah.

Amen :)

Have faith!

Ins

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