Esok

 Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Aku berharap ada sinar di hujung jalan,

Aku bersabar sehari lagi,

Moga esok lebih indah dari hari ini


Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Aku sujud tunduk,

Lalu berpeluk tubuh menahan sejuk,

Moga esok,

Matahari terbit dari timur ufuk,

Mencair bekunya hati,

Memanas kembali semangat nurani


Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Yang hilang dalam kiraan,

Barangkali,

Hanya dibibir jadi ucapan,

Di khayal dalam fikiran,

Menjadi jeda segala lelah perasaan,

Cukup, untuk menghela satu nafas lagi,

Dan hidup,

Untuk satu hari lagi,

Satu hari sahaja lagi.


Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Aku bertahan untuk Esok yang hakiki,

Esok yang tak perlu dihitung lagi,

Esok...

Di mana bila akhirnya ia kekal abadi 

InsyaAllah

Janji Tuhan itu pasti


Atas nama Tuhan

Pemilik esok yang telah pergi

Dan esok yang belum tiba lagi

Aku berharap

Saat tiada lagi esok untuk diri ini

Moga Tuhan redhai

Moga puas aku nikmati hari ini

Agar esok

Tiada lagi penyesalan di hati

Tiada lagi jiwa-jiwa yang meragui

Kerana janji Tuhan itu pasti

Benar-benar pasti


Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Moga Tuhan hitung kesabaran ini.

Setiap langkah kaki,

Walau terpaksa tapi digagahi,

Setiap hela nafas,

Walau lemas tetap lepas

Setiap baris senyuman,

Tetap nyaman walau beban,

Dan untuk setiap jiwa,

Tetap cinta walau seksa


Untuk kesekian kali esok,

Untuk segala kontradiksi yang lapuk,


Esok.

InsyaAllah.

Esok


Ins

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